Life has been pretty crazy recently. Between hitting the ground running at work, starting to pray about the summer trip back to Belgium, and other changes happening both in and around me, I was beginning to feel like I was standing in front of a washing machine. One of those front-load ones where you can watch the clothes, water, and suds churn and swirl. The really cool part never starts at once; there is a build up that takes a few cycles before things get all crazy. I remember praying recently, "Lord, I feel like I'm standing in front of a washer that just got going and You're about to open the door and let that swirling, churning wall of water knock me on my butt." And He has.
Late Friday night, I got a Facebook message from Jodi, my good friend/AIA staff member who is leading the Belgium trip. She told me that she and the other track & field AIA staff members wanted me to pray about coming up to Xenia on June 7th or 8th to help run training camp for the athletes, get ready for Belgium, and be another able body who would be able to make sure things run smoothly.
I will be honest - my immediate reaction was one of, "Wow..." While I didn't say any of the things that were running through my mind to Jodi ("Are you serious? Why me?; I've never done anything like that; Are you sure you want me?; Are you trying to get me to join staff?"), they have been hanging out in my head for a little bit now. I've been praying fairly non-stop since she asked me to start praying (praise God for a job that provides me with a lot of time to stand around and pray). I spent my quiet time on Saturday reading Exodus 3 where Moses talks to God on the mountain. God has just told him that he will be the one to go to Pharaoh and lead Israel out of Egypt. And Moses stands in front of God and gives Him a laundry list of why he should find someone else. I was fairly confident of the answer that God was leading me to, but then I went to church on Sunday morning and the preacher used that as one of his sections of Scripture in his sermon. His topic - how we go to God asking for things, and that He does answer us. Alright, Lord, message received and understood.
It is amazing to me that God loves me, that He loves us. He created this entire universe, and all of creation obeys Him. When Jesus was on earth, He walked on water, stopped storms, drove illnesses from people, raised people from the dead. But we, who were made by Him, dare to stand before our Creator and declare, "No."And He still would send His Son to die for us. Because He loves us.
So, I am going to go to Xenia for three-ish weeks before I go to Belgium. I am going to trust that He will use me, even if I tend to spook like a horse and want to dart at the slightest rustle. I will trust that He has equipped me with all of the tools that I will need, and now it's just a matter of using them. He has brought me through so much and has given me no reason to distrust Him. I will continue to turn to Him and pray that I am bringing Him glory in the process. I may revert back to my Moses-like ways and want to show Him that I'm not the girl for the job, but deep down, I know that if He says I am, then I am.
Now all we need to do is to figure out a feminine form of the name "Moses".
Late Friday night, I got a Facebook message from Jodi, my good friend/AIA staff member who is leading the Belgium trip. She told me that she and the other track & field AIA staff members wanted me to pray about coming up to Xenia on June 7th or 8th to help run training camp for the athletes, get ready for Belgium, and be another able body who would be able to make sure things run smoothly.
I will be honest - my immediate reaction was one of, "Wow..." While I didn't say any of the things that were running through my mind to Jodi ("Are you serious? Why me?; I've never done anything like that; Are you sure you want me?; Are you trying to get me to join staff?"), they have been hanging out in my head for a little bit now. I've been praying fairly non-stop since she asked me to start praying (praise God for a job that provides me with a lot of time to stand around and pray). I spent my quiet time on Saturday reading Exodus 3 where Moses talks to God on the mountain. God has just told him that he will be the one to go to Pharaoh and lead Israel out of Egypt. And Moses stands in front of God and gives Him a laundry list of why he should find someone else. I was fairly confident of the answer that God was leading me to, but then I went to church on Sunday morning and the preacher used that as one of his sections of Scripture in his sermon. His topic - how we go to God asking for things, and that He does answer us. Alright, Lord, message received and understood.
It is amazing to me that God loves me, that He loves us. He created this entire universe, and all of creation obeys Him. When Jesus was on earth, He walked on water, stopped storms, drove illnesses from people, raised people from the dead. But we, who were made by Him, dare to stand before our Creator and declare, "No."And He still would send His Son to die for us. Because He loves us.
So, I am going to go to Xenia for three-ish weeks before I go to Belgium. I am going to trust that He will use me, even if I tend to spook like a horse and want to dart at the slightest rustle. I will trust that He has equipped me with all of the tools that I will need, and now it's just a matter of using them. He has brought me through so much and has given me no reason to distrust Him. I will continue to turn to Him and pray that I am bringing Him glory in the process. I may revert back to my Moses-like ways and want to show Him that I'm not the girl for the job, but deep down, I know that if He says I am, then I am.
Now all we need to do is to figure out a feminine form of the name "Moses".
Haha! If you ever figure out a name, let me know! Side note...I love seeing how God uses you...and I love being a part of how He uses you :)
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